i hate to be adult!

Pernah nggak sih kalian fikir. Semakin dewasa, kita ditimpa banyak cobaan.
Sama kayak pepatah, makin tinggi pohon, makin cepet sampe ke langit. salah.
makin tinggi pohon, makin banyak angin yang menerpa.
gimana, pernah ngerasain kan?
gw juga..
eh, tapi catet lho ya, gw bukannnya ngartis..
maksudnya bukannya gw lagi naek daun ato apa, tapi ungkapan pohon tadi (yang biasanya sering ditujukan ke artis yang sedang naik daun), sesuai sama keadaan gw.

semakin banyak umur kita, semakin banyak juga yg kita fikirin.
pertama, sebagai anak tertua itu walaupun menyenangkan, kadang berat.

gw mesti kasih contoh yang baik buat adek gw.
gw mesti dituntut melakukan sesuatu pertama kali, setelah itu baru adek gw.
kalo adek gw gabisa diharapkan (emang gabisa sama sekali), gw yang kena imbas.
why life is so hard?

it's also 'bout love.
some times I make friends 'so close' with someone, I always fail.
I do not feel proud to have a couple for several times going out, I was disappointed. It reminds me that I failed to undergo courtship only once. reminds me that I fail to sustain the commitment. reminds me that I was not as strong as my promise that I hold.
what is wrong with me now?
I would not be so calm when I was junior high school, even elementary school. I can not concentrate my mind to my friends, family as well.
besides that, I delegated the choice to live a very difficult moment.
why? why should I? why should they?
why? like this again?
why should be sad, when I can laugh?
why and why?
so many words asked 'why' in my mind?
many 'why' that need to be many answers.

I hate to be an adult.
adult life many of the problems.